I’ve always loved to sing.

It’s one of those deep joys that’s hard to explain — the kind that feels like a soul exhale. People have told me over the years, “You should sing on the worship team,” and honestly, it’s something I’ve quietly dreamed about. I imagined standing up there, offering my voice to God, helping others enter into His presence.

But last night, sitting in church, something shifted.

I felt God’s presence — not just in the worship, but in the quiet moments afterward. A tug. A whisper. A redirection. Not away from worship, but into something deeper. Something more personal. Something I didn’t expect.

It wasn’t the first time I’d felt drawn to this new calling. In fact, I remember expressing this exact desire years ago, when I was still living with my adoptive family. But instead of support, I was shut down immediately. Silenced. And that memory still stings.

Now, even though I feel God stirring something in me, I find myself hesitating.

Why? Because that old lie is still lurking in the shadows: You’re not good enough. Because rejection — especially when it comes from the people who were supposed to love you — has a way of sticking.

But here’s what I’m learning:

“The gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable.” — Romans 11:29

That means God hasn’t changed His mind about me. That the dreams He planted in my heart — whether to sing, write, teach, or serve — are still valid, even if others never saw them. That even if my path looks different than I imagined, it doesn’t make it any less holy.

Maybe my worship isn’t meant for the stage. God isn’t wasting my story. He’s repurposing it.

So if you’ve ever felt a calling get rerouted… If you’ve ever questioned your worth because someone else couldn’t see your potential… If you’re carrying old wounds that whisper “Don’t even try” — know this: You are not disqualified.

God still wants to use you. Maybe in ways you never expected. Maybe in ways that look quieter… but go deeper.

And maybe — just maybe — your healing is your ministry.

Want to follow along as I figure this out in real time?

You’re welcome here.

This space is for healing hearts, hidden gifts, and holy redirections.